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Redeemed

I was in my classroom listening to worship music on YouTube, and I was so touched by this song.  I have heard it many times before, but there are seasons that it touches me more deeply than at other times.  The lyrics are so powerful to me, and each season God makes different lyrics stand out.

Today, the lyrics that brought tears to my eyes are "the fight has already been won."  It's true. Victory is guaranteed--I just need to accept that it may not come the way I want, and it certainly is not coming WHEN I want it to.  Ultimately, on a very fundamental level, it IS enough to know that victory is guaranteed.  God is fighting our battles for us.  There are things He requires of us in the battle:  actions we must take (or not take), prayer, meditation with Him, etc.  But ultimately He is fighting for us.  There is no better Being in the universe to fight our battles for us than Him.  We can honestly trust Him with whatever we are facing.


There are other phrases that struck me today as well:

  • haunted by ghosts that lived in my past
  • bound up by all my failures
  • shame and regret


Like "Big Daddy Weave,"  I'm still stuck there.  I'm trying to find the way to see myself through His eyes, but it's really a struggle.  The voices of my past and my many failures (and a couple in my "present") seem to be much louder at this point than His voice.  I realize that's wrong.

I should allow myself to be defined by how He sees me, not by what I've been told by others.

I like that Big Daddy Weave doesn't leave us there:

  • help me to shake off these heavy chains
  • child, lift up your head
  • I'm not who I used to be
  • You're not done with me yet


It is true that I can see I'm not who I used to be:  I have come a long way personally and spiritually since surrendering my life to Christ many years ago,  I can acknowledge it with my head, but it doesn't reach my heart.  I also take comfort in knowing that He's not done with me yet--that He is still working to refine me and continue to help me become who He has created me to be.


It reminds me a little bit of what I have learned about the Hungarian swimmer Katinka Hosszu and her journey for self confidence.  She apparently won very few (if any) medals in international competition and did not win any medals in the London 2012 Olympics.  Then she asked her boyfriend (now husband) to coach her, and he was able to instill in her a confidence that she never had before, creating the powerhouse swimmer that has already won three golds within the first week--she has gotten gold in every race she has competed in.  Here is a brief excerpt from the article that describes the relationship and the transformation.


"Until recently, her self-belief lagged behind her talent. 
She has a self-deprecating nature ...
“Since I started working with Shane, I have a lot more confidence,” 
Hosszu said. “It’s crazy to think I still need 
Shane telling me: ‘Yes, you are great. 
Yes, you can do that.’”
I am going to get to the point where I don't need another human being to tell me I'm "great" and I "can do it."  I need to get to the point where I understand that GOD thinks that ... and that's enough.

With that said, here is the song:


And here is Big Daddy Weave telling his inspiration for writing the song:

I hope you are blessed!  :)

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