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In Over My Head

I feel like I'm sooo behind this holiday season, especially this week. I feel like my life is completely out of control right now--there's so much to do and time is running out. But can I say a very simple word when someone asks if I'll pile a little more on? No, I have the hardest time saying "no."

I already had planned that I would stick to my prior commitments this week ... and that's all. The rest of the time would be devoted to online Christmas shopping (because I actually detest shopping, but if I can sit my lazy bottom on my computer chair, credit card in hand, and click away, I can actually make it through without a headache.) Well, I'd been sticking to my plan(aside from several trips to the grocery store because in my disorganized state of mind I didn't plan our menu this week) ...

... until yesterday when I picked Carlos up from school, and the PTA President asks me what I'm doing in the morning. I quickly scan my brain, certain that there's something I'm doing, and realize that this is one of the only mornings I don't actually have plans--aside from cleaning my house, which we all know is boring anyway :) So I tell her, reluctantly, "nothing." So she says, "Oh, good, you can come with me to the IMC (to laminate and do stuff for teachers)." So now I'm feeling horrible about myself because I was too weak to say, "I'm busy." So I "compromise." "Uh ... One hour." I tell her. "I can help you for one hour." So I'm going to help her this morning for one hour.

How much Christmas shopping have I done this week, you ask ... exactly none. I haven't spent one minute shopping for anyone. And I need to get the stuff ordered by this Monday at the latest to make sure it gets here in time to be wrapped for Christmas.

And ... I have to make the newsletter for my Mom's Group tomorrow
... and make cookie dough for a cookie dough exchange for the Mom's Group
... and clean my house today (so I can put up a few Christmas decorations)
... and supervise homework, prepare dinner, and clean up from dinner (by 5:15)
...and take Ashley to gymnastics at 5:30
...and take her to school at 6:30 for a performance at 7:00 (and, of course, watch the performance)
... and find the energy to supervise the kids getting ready for bed and (hopefully) in bed by 9:00 so I can have some "me" time.

Maybe if I just go back to bed it'll all go away? ;)

Comments

Anonymous said…
I feel your pain! I too have too much to do and not enough time. Especially this week. Although, we are taking over a new account, and I have a feeling I'm going to be superbusy very, very soon!
Anonymous said…
Surprise, Carmela!!! I very much enjoy reading about your family life events, your deep spirituality, and just the tribulation of your day-to-day life experiences. I don't see much of you anymore; but, that doesn't mean I don't think of you. You hold a special place in my heart.
My, how Ashley has flourished into a beautiful young lady. Pat yourself in the back-you've done a great job.
I can still read that you are busy as ever. Give my best regards to your parents, your cousin, Maurice, Dan, Ashley, Carlitos,& Carlos (he probably doesn't remember me)& to you-a warm hug.
Carmela said…
Oh my gosh! I've been thinking of you so much lately. I'm going to call you right now, girl! :) I MISS you.
tjep said…
Wow, Carmela, you'll have to read my blog. I feel what you're going through! I want to be still this season! You are doing a great job! Just keep on one day at time!
Samantha said…
Carmela, you are WAY too nice! :) I hope your day went well and that you are well rested for a busy day today!

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